But during the haze of trying to feel better for weeks and weeks because the cold just hung around, I did some thinking.
Quite a bit of thinking about different areas of my life, personal and professional, and it has me confused. Confused, but it's clear to me that I need a vision and a plan and it's time to treat what has been a fun "little" thing that I do while the kids are at school more seriously.
I have to take me more seriously. I am a business owner. There, I said it. I am really terrific at building others up, but am not good about building myself up. Sure, I believe in myself and have a pretty good sense of self worth, but I don't like to market myself.
I always knew this. I always knew that I should do the right thing, but shied away from it thinking that a day-to-day plan would suffice. From the beginning of the idea of I Love It All. I've always had the nagging feeling pecking at me, time and time again, that that's exactly what I needed to do.
There's been that little finger jabbing me on the shoulder telling me what was right, but I ignored it, I resisted because I wanted this thing I do {playing with paper} to be free of stress and worry. Not a job. Something fun.
It's been some time since I graduated from college, I have a BBA in Marketing and have been schooled in the right way to conduct a business, so I know what the right thing to do is. I am not proud of myself for flying by the seat of my pants for years and years and not using my skills to do what I know is the right thing.
So, I'm making a list, you know I love lists, and I'm going to do the right things. I'm going to kick it up a notch, I'm going to learn, I'm going to thrive, I'm going to organize and reshuffle, I'm going to feel uncomfortable doing things that I don't really like to do because they're things I need to do and I'm going to hold myself accountable.
And along the way I'm going to love it all, because it's a good thing. And the right things can still be fun things, right?
Wow - how did you get in my head?
ReplyDeleteI am my own worst critic of what I do. I don't see what others see. I know I have the talent & gift, but I never take myself seriously.
Thanks for the kick in the pants!
Let's lift each other up and encourage ourselves to go places that aren't easy...it will all be worth it and we'll be better for it!
DeleteAwesome, Monika! I'm excited to see how you grow and thrive this year! I've never once thought of your business as "little" - I've seen what you do, girl! Your attention to the smallest detail. The fact that you love what you do makes it fun - it's your passion, not just a job. Cheers to 2015!!
ReplyDeleteI DO have fun doing what I do and I feel so lucky to love my job, not everyone can say that. But, in my head I know that I can do more to make what I do easier, more efficient and maybe even grow in areas for more exposure. Here's to making it a reality. And thanks for always encouraging me!
DeleteLittle is not how I would describe your business either ;) You go girl!
ReplyDeleteThanks, Lisa, for the encouragement. I guess I still see it as the little shop I first opened with a few sales each month. I am very blessed to be where I am now!
DeleteGo, Monika, go!! I have no doubt you will accomplish all you set out to do! Hope you have started THE list :)
ReplyDeleteOh yeah! During Isabella's ball practice last night, I was organizing my Blog and Etsy notebooks and trying to wrap my head around what needs to go where and what needs to be done first. I feel energized and hope that it last longer than a day or two, ha!
DeleteI think that post was the one thing I needed most today... Thank you! :)
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I am feeling like this, too. Like I haven't quite found my real spot yet. Good luck to us both!
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